The Alpha's Dark Revenge novel Chapter 42

Nikolai's POV

I couldn't count the number of times I had splashed cold water over my face, but it didn't take away my red rimmed eyes or the weight on my chest. Frustrated with myself for not having control over my emotions at the moment, I grabbed a face towel and wiped my face with it. My nose was runny as well and I could feel that my eyes were swollen. I couldn't remember the last time I had felt this way.

As I gulped down a cup of water, my mind floated back to Liyah.

Liyah.

Knowing her name now only made me feel worse about everything. Why had I been so full of hate, blinded so deeply by regret that I had become this... inhumane. I wondered what Elle would think if she was here now. If I was this disappointed in myself, then I could imagine just how disappointed she would be in me. I had hurt an innocent woman for weeks, for a crime she didn't commit.

I buried my head in my hands, letting the pain and regret wash all over me. She had already been going through a lot, why did I have to add to that? I hadn't been paying attention. Fuck, I

never paid attention. All of this only made me realize how selfish I had become.

Trying my hardest to push the whole thing out of my mind, I washed my face one last time and dried, mindlinking Margaret as I walked out of my bedroom. I braced myself to look into her face as the memory of the last time surfaced. I couldn't break and show her that the look of disappointment on her face affected me that much.

She arrived at my bedroom in a few seconds. She paused to bow a little and then faced me. "You wanted to see me?"

Taking a deep breath, I nodded. "The priso—Liyah," I corrected. "I need you to take her under your care and make sure she gets better."

She stared at me as though she expected me to explain more but I said nothing. She would eventually hear it from Drew anyways. I didn't feel the need to go through all of that again. Casting a strange look at me that thankfully did not have a trace of judgement in it, she bowed and exited the room. And I released the breath I hadn't known I was holding.

Mindlinking Drew to gather the pack members together, I walked downstairs to where they were already assembled. They quieted down when they saw me approaching. For some reason I felt different this time, like they could all see through me. I wondered how many of them already knew about what had happened, and what they possibly thought about me.

I clenched my fists. Why the fuck was I thinking about all of this? Feeling this way? It didn't matter and I didn't give two fucks about what they thought. I needed to get a fucking hold on myself. I was acting like I'd forgotten the fact that I was the alpha. No one could hurt me, speak up against me nor challenge me. Not a single soul here. I was in charge and would be for a very long time.

I straightened up and went straight to the point. "The prisoner, who will now be addressed by her true name, Liyah, is from this moment on no longer a prisoner."

There was a deafening silence.

I continued. "She is now a free woman and will remain so forever. She is free to live, and to leave if and when she so wishes. And if she decides to remain here, she will hereby be known and welcomed as a member of the Selene pack."

I felt anger begin to flow through me. "I do not owe any of you an expla—"

"Yeah of course. The only person you ever owe anything to is yourself right? We got it."

I stood still in shock at being cut off.

"You took advantage of that poor girl when you very well knew that there was no way in hell she could fight you off! She was weak and defenceless and you hurt her over and over again, Nikolai, and you don't feel even a tiny bit of remorse, you fucking coward?!!"

Drew quickly pulled her towards him and dragged her away as she attempted to launch at my neck, her nails missing the surface of my face by a hair's breadth. I watched her struggle in Drew's grip to no avail.

"I have no idea who you are anymore? Who the fuck are you?!"

"Silence!" I roared, knowingly and unapologetically using the Alpha command on her. I watched her quiet down almost immediately. "Out of my sight!"

The last thing I saw before turning away was the look of disbelief on Drew's face.